Do you ever have a dream about that “Perfect person?” or that special someone that you wish one day would come into your life, and turn your dreadful days into happy ones? But then, you wake up and realize that it was all a dream, and as the days pass in a blur you just think that you’re never going to find that person that only exist in your dreams. - A.E.
Honestly wish I could unfuck you. I wish I could unfuck every man I’ve ever been with. I miss my virginity.
He replies with “where do we stand? With our friendship?” Me: lol yes. This was a fucking stupid idea. I shouldn’t have said anything. I feel like such an idiot now. Grr.
OH WELL!!! What’s done is done.
So this dude that I’ve been on and off withs actually driving me crazy. He told me he liked me last year but I was like whatever because I was depressed, bulimic, suicidal and seriously insecure with the mentality that I don’t need anyone, I don’t want anyone, fuck love and #teamforeveralone. Then we fucked, then things became different, complicated and shit. We stopped talking as much as we used to. I started acting weird trying to be more distant from him. I just thought that I was annoying. Sometime this year we started speaking about how weird things became after we fucked and we basically decided to start over. He said “I can’t wait until the day you can see how beautiful you really are”. That touched me to the core. A few weeks later I told him I liked him. He thought I was joking and of course I was drunk when I sent that message so I went along with his thinking and told him that I was. We stopped talking and a few weeks later he sends me a text telling me that he is thinking of me and shit. I didn’t even reply. Now I’ve just gone on twitter and DM’d him asking where we stand. Straight after I sent that message I logged out because now I’m embarassed and scared to see his reply. Aaaahhh I hate boys, and feelings and shit. Why can’t things just be straight forward and shit?
